The teenage character debuted on the soap in 2001, until 2009, whenColleen tragically died by drowning.

However, portrayer Tammin Sursok encountered some personal struggles in the years after her departure from the soap opera.

“I’m not gonna lie, a ‘sober life’ I was afraid of.

Tammin Sursok smiling

How am I going to go to parties and fit in?

How am I going to have fun?

How am I going to feel energy and dance?

Tammin Sursok posing neon signs

What will everyone think of me?

She also pointed out another perk of staying sober at parties: no hangover!

“Today I am 91 days clean and sober,” he wrote in the caption.

Abhi Sinha looking sideways

“I have an incredible support system.

Friends who have become family.

Family whose trust I have regained.

All the pieces of myself that I never imagined would be gone have come back like magic.

And a wiser, stronger me is certainly staring back in the mirror.

For the first time in my life, I’m living in gratitude every day.

I can’t remember the last time I was this happy.”