It’s notBig Ed’s first time in therapy, but this may have been his most revealing visit.

Silveira had Big Ed lay back on a recliner and draped a piece of colorful cloth over his eyes.

Big Ed’s venture into his past life had some very … interesting results.

Big Ed from 90 Day Fiance

As he was guided into the past, he was visibly shaken.

“I’ve been here before,” Big Ed told Silveira.

“I have an elf, a leprechaun costume.”

Big Ed in hypnotherapy

As he dove deeper into the memory, more tragic details emerged.

“I was small.

I was a dwarf, like a performer in a circus,” he explained to his hypnotherapist.

“They would hang me upside down in metal shoes and I would spin and entertain people.

People would laugh, people would laugh.

I was a lonely performer, and they threw me in a hole.

They threw me away.”

Even the professional seemed at a loss for words upon hearing his startling discovery.

“That I’m not loved,” he concluded.

Despite this, the memory did make him feel even more grateful for his partner, Liz.

“And now I definitely feel love.

And Liz makes me feel love.”

Not all viewers were buying Binto ig Ed’s claims that he was once a leprechaun in another life.

Commenters on TLC’sYouTubewere equally unbelieving of Big Ed’s wild story.

“Circuses weren’t a thing in 1669 but ok lol,” read one comment.

Others viewed the moment as another reason to love Big Ed.

“Maybe the soul lesson is [Big Ed’s] entertaining.

[He’s] actually pretty funny,” a fan wrote.