The following article contains references to suicide.

However, after begrudgingly making two spin-off films, she said goodbye to Samantha.

“Never,” she later said of returning.

Kim Cattrall in a pink feather boa

“It’s a ‘no’ from me.”

“The tragedies in my life continue to shape me,” she toldThe Guardianin 2019.

“My mother’s childhood was shocking and dramatic,” Cattrall once toldThe Guardian.

Young Kim Cattrall in black and white

“in which she delved into her ancestry.

Cattrall learned that after abandoning her grandmother, her grandfather started another family.

On the show, Cattrall traveled to England to find them.

Young Kim Cattrall photoshoot

“In some ways I think I would have been much happier surrounded by family.

In Canada it was just us.”

“We grew up barely knowing each other,” she said.

Young Kim Cattrall with a ponytail

When she was 11, Cattrall spent a year in Liverpool.

She made friends and fell in love with the city.

Her father had been a British army officer, while her mother was a secretary.

Kim Cattrall in black and white

“They were scousers, real grafters,” she toldThe Guardianin 2019.

But they also fit the classic 1960s gender stereotypes.

“It was very clear what their roles were,” she toldGlamour.

Kim Cattrall in Sex and the City

“Truly what I learned from my parents was not to make waves.

Just go with the flow.

Don’t stand out,” she told the outlet.

Kim Cattrall in white

“I realized that was not how I was going to live my life.

I wasn’t happy.”

As she put it, “I like to have a point of view.”

Kim Cattrall in a pink blazer

In fact, she refused the role three times but Star kept pushing.

“She wasn’t interested in a TV series,” Star toldVariety.

“Now it’s impossible to imagine the show without her.”

Kim Cattrall in red

Why was Cattrall so hesitant about the role?

“At the time I was just about to turn 41… “You have to understand that this was 1997.

I was just thinking: ‘Who is going to believe it?

Kim Cattrall in a yellow gown

And do I want to do it?'”

Nevertheless, Star eventually convinced her to take on the role seemingly despite the actor’s instincts.

But thank goodness she did!

Kim Cattrall interview

In fact, Cattrall has even blamed the show for their eventual divorce.

“It cost me my marriage, because I was never home,” Cattrall toldnews.com.au.

As the actor explained toThe Guardian, her first divorce had also been hard.

Kim Cattrall in purple

“I’ve always been more insecure personally than professionally.”

for commit to the project, she decided that trying to have children would be impossible.

“This was 1998, I would have to become a bit of a science experiment.

Kim Cattrall smiling

… My partner and I would have to be available to have sex at a certain time.

“I am not a biological parent, but I am a parent,” she said.

… you’ve got the option to express that maternal side, very clearly, very strongly.

It feels very satisfying.”

As the actor later revealed, she didn’t quite get along with her co-stars.

After making the second film, Cattrall was asked byPiers Morganfor ITV if the women were friends.

“We’ve never been friends,” she revealed.

“We’ve been colleagues.”

Apparently, a lot of thetension between Cattrall and her co-starscame down to money.

In some ways, Cattrall was happy with this.

she relayed toThe Guardian.

“But this ‘one thing’ is such a positive, vibrant outlook on life.

It could be a lot worse!

For me to play a femme fatale in my forties …

I thought that those days were done, that I’d be playing wives and mothers.”

The one downside was that men her own age found themselves intimidated by her.

Clearly, her sex symbol status wasn’t theworsttragedy of Cattrall’s life!

“I played her, and I loved her,” the actor toldVariety.

“I felt ultimately protective of her.”

The plot line was, as far as Cattrall was concerned, “heartbreaking.”

Cattrall went on to wonder why Samantha couldn’t be shown going through career difficulties instead.

I thought that’s a great idea.

That’s a conflict.

Instead of an underage boy’s …” Cattrall told the publication.

Kim Cattrall experiences misogyny often

Kim Cattrall began her acting career back in the ’70s.

As the actor explained toGlamour, it actually happens far more often than most people realize.

But, tragically, she still experiences misogyny.

“I experience [misogyny] every day, especially when I’m by myself,” she said.

I get treated differently when I’m with a man, especially my partner.”

Cattrall continued, saying, “Misogyny isn’t something that happens occasionally.

It’s prevalent and it’s hurtful.”

As hard as this constant misogyny must be for Cattrall, we can only applaud her for speaking up.

Four years later, he died at the age of 86.

Cattrall initially struggled to allow herself to grieve.

“I was trying to be brave and I suddenly thought, ‘What am I doing?

My dad died, I should be able to cry.’

I was beating myself up about not being able to get over it.”

She scattered her father’s ashes at Anfield Stadium, the home of his favorite soccer team.

“It’s still really raw,” she said at the time.

Since the shock of his death, Cattrall began contemplating her own mortality.

“I’m concerned about Alzheimer’s disease,” she told theMirrorin 2016.

“It took my father.

But that’s your DNA.

It’s part of life.

And I’m trying not to be so fear-based.

It’s a wake-up call to enjoy life, more than anything else.”

He’d been reported missing five days earlier.

A year after Chris’ death, Cattrall told theDaily Mailthat he’d died by suicide.

As she explained, no one was prepared.

His death shook her to her core.

“But my brother, this was out of the natural order.

This wasn’t supposed to happen.

It was sudden and unexpected.”

Cattrall wasn’t pleased with the comment and called out Parker in a separateInstagrampost.

“Let me make this VERY clear.

(If I haven’t already) You are not my family.

You are not my friend.